Life is a funny thing. You go on minding your own business and then one day the world as you know it just changes. Changes. Things you see everyday suddenly become unfamiliar. People you knew so well suddenly become strangers. Things you did with no effort at all suddenly require all the energy you have. Daily living becomes taxing. People want to ask you if you’re okay but, of course, you’re not. They want to tell you they are there for you if you ever need anything and the truth is, you do need something but you don’t know what it is. You want to talk about it until your throat is raw and your eyes are dry but you fear speaking the truth because once it’s said you can’t take it back. Words in your head finally become real when you spill them out to the universe.
The hardest part of the day is always the morning. You wake up and the first realization you have is that the nightmare followed you. You would like to have left it somewhere in the place you go when you sleep but no – The Nightmare is standing there staring at you. The Nightmare latches on to you as soon as you wake up and sits on your shoulder all day and just as soon as you get distracted with something The Nightmare weighs you down again. Just to remind you it doesn’t like to be forgotten. Just to remind you this is your life now. Just to tell you that you were only fooling yourself when you were making other plans.